OVERTHINKING

Rest. Everything that we are; as a human, as a specimen, as energy, and even beyond that. Everything that our body, mind, and soul are capable of still involves rest in order to continue on with it’s flow.

So why is it that for some of us, the mind can never rest? The body and spirit seem to have no problem with rest whatsoever, in fact it is encouraged to a certain extent. You see, most people think that we’re just talking out our asses when it’s brought up in conversation; although no, it is as real as these words can get. There really is no off button for an over-thinker; even something as simple as waking up from a good nights sleep may feel mentally exhausting.

For me this is something that started very early on in life. It’s been the cause of bringing me to my lowest points, just as it is the one thing about myself that I seem to give thanks to anytime I find myself in front of a breathtaking sunset, or any other true moment of pure bliss.

A lot of people tend to describe it as mostly negative, although throughout time, the more I worked on opening up the mind itself, I had started to fall in love with it. It has been the answer to introducing me to my own version of true happiness. Just like everything else in life, there are setbacks, although I've come to a realization that when I accept the tidal wave of thoughts that crash through my mind rather than fight it off, I tend to treat people better, I look and feel better, and above all else, I see better.

Most people tend to think that since I have been able to take such a stressful and negative asset and turn it into something so beautiful, that I must be on cloud 9 at all times. However they couldn’t be more wrong. Understand that I didn’t like what I was living with, so I changed my thoughts on what it was as a whole that successfully healed me. In order to do so I had to break down the problem all the way to the very start, my beliefs. I believed that it was painful and scary. I believed that I was living in hell. In order to switch those thoughts to something more pleasant to live with, I started to search deeper in order to notice the good things that came out of it.

My mind did not just turn to butterflies and unicorns after that (like most people tend to think). The actual truth of the matter is that the demons stayed… all of them. I just trained myself to not let them harass me anymore.

To me, that is the most ironic thing about being who I am. I have made it my life’s mission to be the best human that I can possibly be, to stay positive as well as kind with each step I take, yet my mind, the one place that is the power room of everything that I am, is the same place that is dedicated to trying to kill me.

Stop judging your life based on others that walk around you. Stop wishing that you had a different life, or lived behind a different set of eyes because even the happiest of people are living in their own hell. Instead, focus on changing your outlook. Whatever your problem is that lies within, pay attention to what good things happen as a result, and learn to fall in love with that. If doing exactly that can talk me off a ledge, then I guarantee it can do the same for you.

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